Karren's Fitness Journey

After all the partying from the long weekend I’ve really bit hit with fatigue (mentally and physically). The past few days I’ve had the worst headache and I haven’t been able to train at all….. And now my motivation has completely died…

This week is also really significant to me because it’s the start of my new career path. As of last Friday I wrapped up my office job doing Sports Admin and I’m going after what I’m passionate about. You’d think this week I’d be all chirpy and excited to be spending all my days in the gym - but because of that long weekend i’m the exact opposite. I’d rather be lying in bed and eating EVERYTHING… Sad I know. And I know that’s not how anyone should live (let alone a personal trainer).

Today was a little bit better compared to the past 2 days… Still have this stupid headache but I’m trying to be more in tune with my body. What I mean by that is - if my body feels too dead to go to the gym and do a workout, I won’t… If my body wants an apple or a protein shake I’ll give that to my body. Whilst I do believe in iifym I really want to learn how to listen to my body - because when I’m a 50 y.o granny I don’t want to be weighing my food. At the moment I’m not counting my macros but I am making sure that I’m meeting my protein goals - and so far I think that’s going really well for me and it’s not causing me any stress. REMEMBER THAT FITNESS SHOULD ENHANCE YOUR LIFESTYLE - NOT CAUSE STRESS. 

For the remainder of the week I want my goal to be to LISTEN TO YOUR BODY. As simple as that sounds that’s what I want to achieve. If I can do it till Sunday, I’m sure I’ll be able to do it for the week after, and the week after that. 

Today I watched Marissa Lace’s YouTube video “ITS OK TO NOT BE OK” and everything she said hit me like a tonne of bricks…. It was as though she had been reading my journal and is watching over everything that I’m doing and thinking. These are the key points I got out of the video:

• When you are feeling down or anxious - acknowledge that you are not okay. Allow yourself to be vulnerable, speak to someone close to you, allow them to help you. Remember that we are just humans, we make mistakes and we need to experience the lowest lows otherwise we wouldn’t appreciate our highs. Life is meant to have road bumps, life is meant to be challenging and exciting. If we didn’t have any of this life would be very mundane, and who wants to live like that? We are all put on this earth to achieve greatness (little or big). Embrace every experience - there is something to learn from every situation.

• Honour your body and soul - which is why I needed to leave my job. If I were to stay in this office-job I wouldn’t be respecting myself. Allowing myself to go through each day feeling like “well that was a waste of a day” is not showing myself the act of self-love. 

• YOU CONTROL YOUR OWN HAPPINESS. You control your thoughts, and your thoughts determine your actions and therefore experiences. If you aren’t happy where you are stop and think “what part of my life isn’t fulfilling me?” Whilst I was choosing whether or not to quit my job I thought my whole life was a mess, but really it was just my job that was causing me grief. And this grief was causing me to believe that my workouts were crap and I started binge eating anything and everything I saw…..
  

• Ask yourself daily what are you passionate about? What enhances your life and makes you feel like your true self? AND DO THAT! And do it with all your heart and soul
  

If you’re going through a rough patch please do yourself a favour and watch this video

Since coming back from my Europe holiday I’ve realised that life is too short to settle for a mundane and unchallenging life. Prior to going to Europe I worked in an office, sat on my butt and stared at a computer from 9-5. This job was not fulfilling to me at all. I’ve always known that everyone is put on this earth for a reason, and we’re all made to do big and wonderful things. I want to be able to know that I’ve made a difference to this world. However this job that I was in didn’t do any of that for me. It’s been almost 2 months since coming back and I’ve resigned from my current job. I’ve always had a very comfortable life growing up so taking this massive leap of faith to step out of a stable full time job was probably one of the most courageous yet scary things I have ever done. 

I’m currently in my final days at this job and every day is a struggle but at least I know there is light at the end of the tunnel! I’ve managed to secure 2 part-time/ casual positions at a gym as a Personal Trainer. I’m really hoping that this is my “calling”. I’m longing for a job that is interactive and makes an impact on someone’s life. I’ve been a personal trainer before but I didn’t work to the best of my ability (simply because I thought it was just going to be a “till I finish uni” sorta job). This time if I’m truly passionate about health and fitness I’ll need to work with passion and determination - I need to be happy to work for free and share my knowledge. 

But for right now my focus is to get through these last couple of days at my office job. “Take one day at a time” says my boyfriend. I truly look up to my boyfriend because he is the epitome of this saying. He has no idea what will happen tomorrow (besides that he has work) but he lives every moment at it’s fullest and doesn’t set expectations for anything. He is one of the most happiest, smartest and kindest people I have ever met (and I’m not being biased because he’s my boyfriend - anyone can tell you this about him).

I do have a BIG goal planned for future me, and I’ve promised myself that I will step one small step every day to work towards it. So this is my step for today… I hope everyone is having an amazing day thus far :)

“You can fail at what you don’t want. So you might as well take a chance on doing what you love” - Jim Carey